A lost soul in tis society

2008-08-20T00:16:00.001+08:00

i have moved liao.
Here it is!

2008-08-08T01:49:00.003+08:00

Things that are running in my head now:

Ignore all calls, Msn ect.
Cover myself in my blanket.
Fall asleep forever a.k.a ~~Dead~~
~~Turn back time, I dun want to know anyone of you including my love.~~
Anti-Social.
Go swimming.
Kill someone.
No more stressful life.

still has more but don't want to continue no more.Feeling better to let out some of my thoughts.

2008-08-05T23:57:00.002+08:00

Always have been like this, ever since i knew i'm different weird stuff came too wtf lah, lucky my house got something to block it or i dead liao lah. Haix why am i crying now?

2008-07-30T19:31:00.004+08:00

I smile, you laugh, I look away
I sigh, you ask me why, I say
It's ok and I'm just feeling down
Your hand on mine I hear the words
If only love had found us first
Our lives they would be different, oh...

So I stand
And wait
I am just a man

Where would we be now baby
If we found each other first
Where would we be now baby...

And now I must confess
That I'm a sinking ship
And I'm anchored by the weight of my heart cause its filled with these feelings
But I keep my true thoughts locked beside my heart's black box
It won't be found, it won't survive, through the smoke or the wreckage

So I crash
And burn
I've got a lot of things to learn, oh...

Where would we be now baby
If we found each other first
What would you do now darling
If I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait...
As long as you want
Where would we be now baby...

I'll wait
I'll wait

Where would we be now baby
If we found each other first
What would you do now darling
If I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait...
As long as you want
Where would we be now baby

I'll wait
I'll wait...

Where would we be now baby
If we found each other first
What would you do now darling
If I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait...
As long as you want
Where would we be now baby

I'll wait
I'll wait...

Every movie without fail,within one week its releases,i would catch it.
But look at it now,i haven even go see Batman,Hellboy,Meet dave n so on..
It sucks huh, i so wanted to at least see a movie a week.Asking too much again?
Its my fucking hobby watching movies, so deprive of it lah!
Movies releases my S-T-R-E-S-S! Current life with out it is Stressing/ful life!
Red Cliff was the only one i saw so far,sucks.
Only can say is, you dun know a fucking thing bout me yeah huh?

2008-07-28T18:59:00.002+08:00

蕭敬騰!
10 Aug 08 (sun), 1:30pm
Suntec City Mall, Fountain Of Wealth..

Wah aug is a very busy day for me..>.<
Kind souls can pei me see Mr Xiao?

2008-07-27T23:50:00.002+08:00

Simply retarded at home today :D
Having a fucking cold,i got fucking take care okay?
Stupid lah,dun know which idiot pass me germs de
>.<

Went out to breathe fresh air awhile but went back home due to reformatting comp.
And sick is the hardest thing for me now.

2008-07-26T21:37:00.002+08:00

Morning went to Police station take statement.Was having a very shitty headache can?
While taking the statement thing there was this Indian Char Bo and her IO very fierce can?Scared me lah!

Took like 1 hours plus plus then manage to finish everything,went to a Kopitiam eat there got Botak Jones lah~
But i remember that time i went there also same reason.

~~Any kind soul treat me eat Botak Jones?~~

ねえ、あなたを愛してとても寂しい。
ご存じですか？
私に永遠に一緒になりたいと思って.

2008-07-25T23:28:00.002+08:00

Dear sorry today let you wait so long.T.T
i'm very blur lah haix,dun know how to count time.

My good friend,you are not a hongster k?
You will find a better gal,yee tat and i will be here for you just like you 2 are here for me during conrad's incident.

2008-07-24T23:23:00.010+08:00

Maths paper 1 today was spent dreaming funny stuffs.
Ytd..follow Bunny to work,but when reach already realised he don't need to work.
Bo doh!Lols~
From Cine walk to PS >.<

whenMr Bunny becomes My Mouse

Gl face.Why hair so brown?

我将来会不会祥梦里这样开心?
te quiero Marco

私の人生の世話をする必要はありません。
これは私の人生です。
たぶん私ははるかに幸せでいいんだ。

2008-07-21T16:05:00.003+08:00

its raining outside and my uniform is wet wonderful >.<
while waiting for oral exam,out of bored-ness..a funny chat is born!
Chun=c Yanlong=y Me=m

C:(to Y*)eh after 'N' level want go clubbing?
Y:orh..anything lor..do wad there?
M:lol?go there drink?
C:Nope..not drinking..
Y:den wad?
M:go flirt charbo?
C:yes..find chio bu
Y:lols..
M:go grind charbo?
C:yes yes..grind charbo..
Y:wtf!
M:so..chun..ur hobby is grind charbo?
C:yes..all guys like that wad
Everyone laughs*

Still got alot bout racist and Malaysia stuff..
i so bad sia

2008-07-18T12:22:00.002+08:00

Went to see doctor,she said my use my feet to much =.=
i where got run here run there >.<

I seriously needed to clear my mind,i dun want it to happen to anyone i know,i dun wish to hurt anyone.I'm sorry.

Pain killers again,the last time one i haven even use finish!
Happy Birthday Steve kor!(tmr den is his bdae)

2008-07-15T13:57:00.004+08:00

Prelim paper 1 today >.<
Wonderful sia..Previous days were hanging out with Mr Bunny.Shall not post more.Reason?Simply too lazy to blog out =x

Was slacking at home,sleep.Woke up at around 7 pm,eat my dinner.Typical life right?
Msn-ed Weili >.< stop calling me si huimin lah =(
Mr Bunny came down n find me..so nice right~say hao Thursday meet mah.today mr bunny school stuff till 8 plus,somemore slept at 4 am =0..go home sleep..now so sick liao i worry wor.
typical stuff,waited for bunny's bus to came and here blogging lols.

Mr Bunny <3 cute hors lols.

homicidal

2008-07-13T15:46:00.002+08:00

My actions very pro is it?Simi jiao wei when i go your fucking house?Ask your lanjiao brother what he do lah.kp,he shuang shuang play with you den fuck another charbo you know or not?.Chao cheebye lah.ruinning my lanjiao mood.see my face scold me lai lah.scared you is it?you got chup so wad?you are just like ur brother act like one ah lian or ah beng wannabe nia.I 2 time u brother?hello hor,i break liao den go with my dear now hor..unlike ur sibeh ganpua humji brother who 7 time other charbo liao den kp n say break with me hor..i 16 so what?go ask him tell the lanjiao truth lah kaopei so much..he care for me alot meh?3 years he got one is faithful to me one meh?limbeh still here okay,got taiji so much come out settle lah,dun kao pei kao bu so much.

Please lah,immature can?i push all the blame to ur father?no lor.you brother the fucking bastard not happy come poke u with knife lor okay?think lah..you only also one lanjiao cheebye wad..fuck lah..

2008-07-13T10:37:00.000+08:00

You Are From Pluto

You are a dark, mysterious soul, full of magic and the secrets of the universe.

You can get the scoop on anything, but you keep your own secrets locked in your heart.

You love change and you use it to your advantage, whether by choice or chance.

You don't like to compromise, to the point of being self-destructive with your stubborness.

Live life with love, and your deep powers will open the world to you.

What Planet Are You From?

You Are: 40% Dog, 60% Cat

You and cats have a lot in common.

You're both smart and in charge - with a good amount of attitude.

However, you do have a very playful side that occasionally comes out!

Are You More Cat or Dog?

Bunny is Hom0~

2008-07-13T02:13:00.005+08:00

Sat 12/7/08
Bunny is sick >.<
So i never go disturb him.I so kind right?But mum says that since his sick go pei him lurhs,but i decide not to.If sick so please takes a sleep,a drink(not wad u thinking)den wait for body to be better..

Evening came,bunny is awake =.=".Since i have nothing to do,i decides to go vist him.
Bunny sure don't look like his sick lah omg >.< Lying one right?

Walk around,walk,crap,laughs..crap again..until Vivo..Makan Bk..Small talk..Home-d.
I'm Ms Ticklish :D.
<3 Bunny.

2008-07-12T16:01:00.002+08:00

why do i have to lose my ez-card?
places that i wanted to go now all like very ma fan can?

i'm fucking sian now lah..i wan go sembawangpark slack also cannot >.<
i wan go town also cannot..>.< knnbccb lah!
why i so stupid>.<

2008-07-11T22:11:00.001+08:00

marco was here

2008-07-11T17:50:00.004+08:00

DRINK IT DOWN -
Smexy Band
Smexy HYde
Smexy Song
Hwat Video

lmao,i'm crazy
Today gym,tmr swim,sunday cycle/run..i want be healthy lah omq,chest hurts like fuck since ytd from over jumping..wonderful huh >.< can i die from over pain?

2008-07-11T12:39:00.001+08:00

Oh I had alot to say
Was thinking on my time away
I miss you and things weren't the same
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.

This time I think i'm to blame
It's harder to get through the days
We get older and blame turns to shame
'Cause everything inside it never comes out right
And when I see you cry it makes me wanna die.

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.

Every single day I think about how we came all this way
The sleepless nights and the tears you cried
It's never too late to make it right
Oh yeah Sorry!

I'm sorry i'm bad, i'm sorry i'm blue
I'm sorry about all the things I said to you
And I know I can't take it back
I love how you kiss, I love all your sounds
And baby the way you make my world go 'round
And I just wanted to say i'm sorry.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry baby.
I'm sorry.

2008-07-09T17:23:00.003+08:00

Dear good friend of mine Wai lap,please please,when i say please really means it,do not,DO NOT!sneak up behind me and scares me.Very tired the whole day liao,den still kena ur actions..will heart attack one can?scarly i die how?:(
somemore u beat tat tat >:(

I'm not emo-ing,i'm TIRED~
and unlike u said,i'm not gan chiong to tell that i'm not emo,get that :)

Still freak out by you lah kns >.<

2008-07-09T15:13:00.000+08:00

Look at all these happy people
Living their lives
Look at all these plastic people
They're dying inside
Look at all these shallow people
Telling their lies
Look at all these empty people.

2008-07-08T23:46:00.001+08:00

Needs and Wants.
I have Needs now i wanna have my Wants lols *hint* i just dun want admit it only.

Sorry Ateeq,i don't mean to make you cry in class,so sorry.I will not talk to you unnecessryly..

2008-07-06T16:59:00.002+08:00

sleep like shit today.Too tired to do anything else.
<3 hurt himself while helping others,how nice is that?(stupid)Please take care lurhs.
i will worry for you de >.<

Just remember tomorrow no school due to Youth day.sucks.

2008-07-05T21:42:00.003+08:00

woke up at 4 am today:D
reach ECP at 4.30 plus with <3.Watch the sunrise lols.
Den we go cycling lurhs,so i was suan-ing <3 for cycling so slow,i'm sorry!
>.< was very bu shuang lah,write de things dun want let me see.

Slack at the beach.Rain.Slack again.Eat.cam-whore.Home.
very sian right~

The Beach

i'm a Geek!:)

5 more days to Hellboy n 1 month lols~

2008-07-04T22:11:00.001+08:00

School = okay.
Love = not bad.
MOney = nothing for me to worry about.
Health = no problem.

overall = Pass!

2008-07-02T18:42:00.002+08:00

sick.stress.spinning head.

the pills are working.but got side-effect.>.<
conrad's dad call n kp me >=0
its not helping ok.

wait till augest31?i'm okay with it.
my life rocks(seriously,no kidding)
i just saw on the news that vivo there got a ship there again..

thinking to go tomorrow.but ma say go redhill blk 123..wth?
got go before.n it sucks.i don't want go.suan liao.tmr de stuff tmr den say.

2008-06-30T14:56:00.004+08:00

why i like this again?
school was okay.but i think i just lost it.

from school walk back to home..hasn't stop crying.
why am i like this again?
fuck it.
suicidal seems like a pretty good option to take now.

do you seriously for once believe that i lied?
fine.what u going through now,you want me take the same step?
in that bloody ward with needles poking inside my wrist n all other shit?

i can glady do so okay?
why must you be huanting me now?making me so vent up n cried?
croc tears u said.screw that.its real!god damn it.

starting to wish i could drop dead die and be peaceful.
screw it lah nah bei!
who understand sia.i want to stop tearing now lah!
save me from myself.suddenly felt that i don't belong here anymore.

2008-06-30T00:01:00.002+08:00

29/6
just known that a fren of mine got cancer..
have not known what stage now but hope his gonna be okay..
his doing biopsy soon..wish that it will not be that serious..

why is life like this?
changing n changing wth~
Ty <3 for trying to surprise me >.< (totaly no mood)

tmr school sian lurhs..i still got alot things haven done wor knn!
n very sorry to you.n i mean it.(if u ever read tis?)
2-5

2008-06-29T10:30:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry,i'm sorry,i'm sorry,i'm sorry,i'm sorry,i'm sorry~
i don't mean it haix..

2008-06-26T23:53:00.002+08:00

New hp >.< photos n my musics...
aww~
wasted a day at home.spam sms to pple telling them i change number.500 free sms i like that use=.=

meh..sch reopening soon liao lurhs.wanted to do something so badly before sch open>.<
sadded lah,stress at same time,FUCK!
wake up early morning leave my foot prints at the beach..den see sun rise omq~
impossible,yet die die must do in my list lols..5.30am gt bus?
imissyoulahomqsosianathomethinkingofu

2008-06-25T13:40:00.005+08:00

conrad ah,if u reading this,i tell u what ok?
i'm a bitch so wad?ytd call my ma de phone n scold her,den my dad scold u.
why still wan keep calling me?
stop wasting ur time with me can mah?

stress sia omg..

UPDATE~
A fool thinks himself to be wise, but a wise man knows himself to be a fool.
-William Shakespeare (1564-1616), English writer

really lah..i dun know what i will do if that question pop up,
i think will cry bah >.<
its a good idea of eating ice-cream just now,
M. malfunction
A. aggressive
R. rapist(retarded)
C. compassionate
O. obession

lols.i love you.aishiteru.woaini.bleh~
i n u is less den 3

2008-06-23T19:03:00.003+08:00

brought alot of sweets lols..i now gong diao liao..felt like sleeping sia,
so sian lurhs,rotting at home.
eatting sugar rwaks lols.
so piss-ed lah omq!

nothing do..rotting..sleeping blabla
ranting raving..is it sugar or is it me?
i'm a failure at almost everything..

i like the way if someone brush strands of hair away from my face.
i like the way if someone hugs me if i'm not ok.
i like the way if someone holds my hand n leave foot prints at the beach with me..

random blabling..crap lah

2008-06-23T01:54:00.003+08:00

22/6/08
My life is stressing n hard to go on can?
keep give lan lan face hao bu hao?
not becuz its me who show wrong side of me at the wrong time..is i seriously no mood =.=''

last bus,last bus i love last bus lols..
nb lurhs,i'm so fucking hungry lah!(ok my fault,i dun wan eat in the 1st place =x)

sugar=high=happy=blood clot=not happy...
so blabla..i'm crapping>.<
really dun know wad i'm thinking can?
i hate pple,but i almost forgotten i'm one also.

play lan~lame can?audi= bored cuz keep win tmd
not happy not happy..
sorry <3 i know tis two weeks is all black face..n i know will more black face so...nvm..just sorry that u have to put up with me..sian

wad i felt like doing now

2008-06-21T00:51:00.004+08:00

so call have an outting with BLPS pple but..suan le dun want say more.
screwed up lols..
<3 n me today very bad mood sia,for me is because of B&B..dun ask ok?
i felt like running away from here agn,throw away my past kao!

who knows huh?who cares?like i myself cared.
zohan-ed today..funny lurhs..but no mood can?

sibeh moody sia..nahbei,feel like cutting hair but make <3 look like my gf like that omfg!nvm hahas..i dun cut,i try tahan>.<

suger n alchohol is something that will makes me very angsty n violent.but i dun mind make this irritating brain of mine stop thinking of useless stuff.
so cute can?

Cafe Cartel

2008-06-18T14:33:00.005+08:00

wah i keep thinking of going Cafe Cartel and makan sia~
but den i remember last time i went,i ended up gt serious bed bug bite!(at ps somemore)

crap lah~so hungry at home,nothing do,
its raining outside,making me even more emo lols.
thinking thinking thinking~

bah~can any kind soul bring me out to eat?
den saw tis thread..i also want lurhs..am i greedy?
http://www.sgclub.com/singapore/selling_couple_t_67611.html

Current song lyrics

2008-06-18T01:46:00.000+08:00

current song lyrics lols
intro:]
Lalala, lalala, lalalalala, Ohhh (You know, I never felt like this before)
Lalala, lalala, lalalalala, Ohhh (This feeling's like so real)

[verse 1:]
I'm obessive when just one thought of you comes up
And I'm aggressive just one thought ain't close enough
You got me stressing, incessantly pressing the issue
'Cause every moment gone you know I miss you
I'm the question and you're of course the answer
Just hold me close boy 'cause I'm your tiny dancer
You make me shaken now, I'm never mistaken
But I can't control myself, got me calling out for help

[chorus:]
S-O-S please someone help me
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y-O-U are making this hard
I can't take it see it don't feel right
S-O-S please someone help me
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y-O-U are making this hard
You got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night

[bridge:]
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind has got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind it's got me losing it
I'm lost you got me looking for the rest of me
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

[verse 2:]
Just your presence and I second guess my sanity
Yes it's a lesson, it's unfair, you stole my vanity
My tummy's up in knots, and when I see ya it gets so hot
My common sense is out the door, can't seem to find the lock
Take on me (uh huh) you know inside you feel it right
Take me on, I could just die up in your arms tonight
I melt with you, you got me head over heels, (over heels)
Boy you keep me hanging on the way you make me feel

[chorus:]
S-O-S, please someone help me (someone help me)
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y-O-U are making this hard
You got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night

[bridge:]
This time please someone come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind has got me losing it
('Cause you on my mind)
I'm lost, you got me lookin for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please someone come and rescue me
(Someone come and rescue me, yeah)
'Cause you on my mind has got me losing it
I'm lost you got me looking for the rest of me
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

[verse 3:]
Boy you know you got me feeling open and
Boy your love's enough with words unspoken
I said boy, I'm telling you, you got me open
I don't know what to do it's true, I'm going crazy over you
I'm begging

[chorus:]
S-O-S, please someone help me (Somebody help me, yeah)
It's not healthy for me to feel this way
Y-O-U are making this hard (Why you making this hard for me baby?)
You got me tossing and turning can't sleep at night

[bridge:]2x
This time please someone come and rescue me
(Someone rescue me)
'Cause you on my mind has got me losing it
I'm lost, you got me lookin for the rest of me
Love is testing me but still I'm losing it
This time please some one come and rescue me
'Cause you on my mind has got me losing it (All of the time)
I'm lost you got me lookin' for the rest of me
Got the best of me, so now I'm losing it

[outro:]
Lalala, lalala, lalalalala, Ohhh,
Oh Oh
Lalala, lalala, lalalalala, Ohhh,
Oh Oh

Bored

2008-06-17T10:54:00.003+08:00

Panda panda panda~
why wake up so early today =.=
wish to sleep longer lurhs.cause i need to spend my time today alone.kao!
had a intresting dream today lols.dun wish to wake up but hope later can continue again.

i miss <3 lols!
really don't know what to do now leh.so bored can?
maybe i go library slack today bah.

UPDATE AGN~
no library slackinf session..ended up sleep kao!
go see some lame movie with <3 n his friends,they very funny lols.den ask me i like <3 is because his hair rite?yup!but forget tell them,even without that hair i also love <3 lurhs..like him for who he is lah~the move was so over rated hao bu hao?they bloody fight in the water yet they dun even have a single droplet of water can?n <3 cutting his hair tmr~i also wan cut T.T

meh~ <3 sorry if my attitude wad bad today>.<
trying scare u away but i guess no lah..dun wan try it again.sorry sorry make u no dinner eat n go home so late!i love u <3 alot!

Random thoughts of the day lols

2008-06-16T10:30:00.000+08:00

Ok,not trying to be racist or anything but its stuck inside my mind for so long..
And I DUN MEAN TO BE A BLOODY RACIST!

why do mainly molester/rapist are foreign workers?(indian one)
why does malays are mainly people who steal/bully others?
why does fucking prc has to be damn disgraceful?
nvm,i'm stupid anyway

<3 one week liao hor

2008-06-16T01:51:00.000+08:00

15/06
since morning <3 come pei me wor!
so nice of him right =.=' i say liao,dun want let u see my ma jiu shi dun let hao bu hao?

until motherwar reminds me today is father's day den i remember wtf!
so when <3 called me say he outside my house,i on the spot sian diao..
i say dun come my house liao mah >.<
kpoh motherwar try to peek but muahahahah...she only get to see the back view.
off to yuhua village for lunch lols..saw some kids,den sudden felt like old ah mah sia me..<3 is ah gong lols!

went mount faber slack.feeding mosqi only lah,den i dun wan say liao..lazy~
go buki merah safra..wah the sofa damn comfy can? i want bring it home sia!
still dizzy now lah.kp!

Ps:MoMo u are really too much ok?letting me remembers the hurtful stuff n i cried is amusing is it?damn u!

Pss:i love my <3 alot!

<3 my dear

2008-06-15T00:09:00.000+08:00

I know its not much,but i really did enjoy my day today again lols.
Since when did i get so lucky again huh?Hope that i will not be one bitch like i am one haha..i really have no idea ok~

I guess nobody notices it..when i playes DEAD! on youtube today i cry sia..=.=
Really wanted to ask..what do u see in me?
Leave it to unanswered temporary~

2008-06-13T22:29:00.000+08:00

I burn my hand with my maggie soup..how irritating is that!
Fuck my life upside can?
Screw it lah,feel like one _l_ now.

Hulk movie gt Tony Stalk..=.=
Is universal studio serious bout making a The Avengers movie?
Hope they are ok..

Today my life sucks..

2008-06-11T21:26:00.000+08:00

Sleep like one bloody pig today lols..
Nothing is impossible,its true trust me hahas,i'm one real life example!
School moodle works sucks ok?I don't understand any of it.

Why does i have to be lazy?Not that i'm complianing but why?
Right now nobody cares if i die..serious lurhs~

Trying not to admit it but i'm having a fever now,dizzy spells~
Even mum commented that i felt really hot.(No Wonder i felt so cold today)
>.<

Life has to carry on~

2008-06-11T00:16:00.000+08:00

Looking back at the beginning of this
And how life was
Just you and me and love and all of our friends
Living life like an ocean
Now the currents slowly pulling me down
It's getting harder to breath
It won't be too long and I'll be going under
Can you save me from this?

('Cause) It's not my time,
I'm not going
There's a fear in me
It's not showing
This could be the end of me
And everything I know
Oh, I won't go

2008-06-11T00:00:00.000+08:00

All day
Staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
I'm feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown
I don't know why
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Me
Talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
I know
I know they've all been talking 'bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow
I've lost my mind
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little impaired
I know right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
I been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're taking me away
I'm not crazy, I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
But stay awhile and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Hey, how I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
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Thinking bout my past,days in my primary school.Days i have loved dearly,how?
Can i turn back?

Still hating my life as always,relaxing,slacking or must be wasting my life away right?

2008-06-06T23:01:00.001+08:00

A Letter to GM in netoverlord~

Dear GM:
1st of all to introduce my IGN is Ouch. Foremost of all i want to know a specific reason why i been ban by u guys just due to a few megas?? Are u all scared of something or what?? I know i am at fault for just spamming megas, but aren't u at fault by using the notice in game to ask us for donation?? Did u ever see original maple have notice of asking us to donate?? What the point when u say u created this server and u are paying by your own money? If u think u can't afford it then don't create it. We want to have our fun rather than hearing u to ask us to donate like 1 bug.

If u do things with consience why ban me for without warning? If u wanted me to stop, USE YOUR WHATSOEVER "NOTICE" to tell me. Plus people who donate for u we can't get a receipt or something how we know what the hell u been doing with our money. Making other game servers better or netoverlordsms. Who knows. If you really don't give me a very good explaination don't rule out the possibility i will get this matter to the police. Cause if creating server need u to pay the bandwith through your pocket money, people had to donate with their pocket money too. This is what i can't get off with. Cause for all the servers i played this is the 1st one where the GM uses NOTICE to ask people to donate. Aren't u abusing your powers??

DEFINE IRONY!!

2008-05-12T14:36:00.000+08:00

Nobody know nobody cares..all of you..
Keep saying yeah yeah..i care i care..in the end..= shit!

Fuck lah~
Screw off from the sickening mind can?How the hell you understand me..
Motherwar keep say shit u listen..den crap me..KP lah so wad she ur wife?

Okay lor,wife more important,daughter is shit lor k?
MoMo u really disaponited me times agn as so cAlled proven..
Is 'It' very important to you?

Why cant u keep it u to yours words..why hurt me with ur words?
Is it very funny to see me like this?
Traumatising,tuanting me..mocking..all of these where others gave me..
u wanna follow them?

You said one of the letters,i say i will be strong..all is a lie..your love also is a lie..Can you pls stop hurting me as u had promise?

Wish to just MiA now~
where parents,maybe friends (no friends),or others find me hao liao..

Life do sucks as always,when i thought it will be better

2008-05-04T13:22:00.000+08:00

Haix..i have been thinking alot now..
When i hear ur screams of pain and agony...it really pains me alot..
Its all my fault..i should nt have ask u to eat those..
Feeling so useless,cant seems to help u..
i'm hopeless isn't it?
I"M REALLY SORRY

2008-04-26T13:51:00.000+08:00

i'm going insane.
i'm going mad.
i'm going crazy.
i'm losing my mind.
i'm losing my sanity.

Can anyone come fucking save me from this mess?

2008-04-22T22:14:00.000+08:00

School-ed
Sian,lols..people are changing evry second so do i..
I kept myself in the world of the past and it very hurting..I must tahan for 5 more months...I WILL MAKE IT DE!

Went computer lab..do shit..Classmate sucks..den?
Last 2 period Art..getting my shoes painted bt others..now is so bloody white on the front and dirty on the back..Shit~
While they do the canvas...was playing my Psp~

Wth with me lah?
Never have i do such things...Feeling the urge..the feeling to changed something..

Will try figure it out
~

2008-04-17T23:22:00.001+08:00

MY FAv song in Drumania lols..
its love haha....
Today work at phone booth ...sian lor..wad did i went wrong agn?
Sian de leh kao!!

2008-04-16T21:34:00.000+08:00

JUst messing around lols..
dun wan say more

2008-04-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

Sway,lols sway..
dulan..but leh 'kan kai liao'
hahas...school as shit as ever,last period so call pon..
saw some of the juniors already there liao lols..so call join they =x
haha..realised on of them hates my classmate whom i dun like her too =D
wadevala..my mentality still works very well..dun test me okay?
i will be the last person u wan to mess with..
fucking shit pple..
went vivo..
rain
sulk there...went home..
was crying but who knows..yet i dun have the feeling of sad

2008-04-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

MOre of Hyde,as his the one i really go listen the songs..
lols..

2008-04-14T15:34:00.000+08:00

I woke up it was seven
I waited 'till eleven
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I got a lot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending everyday on your own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that it's not fair
Nobody cares 'cuz I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me
Tonight

And maybe when the night is dead
I'll crawl into my bed
I'm staring at these four walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had a good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don't fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

I'm alone and the world is
Nobody wants to be alone in the world

Maths is school is a killer,kiling us so softy that one cant even took notice..
Promise okay,its one last muthu freak out promise,
i will go to school,will not pon..study till tis year finish..
Mother war and daddy finaly once agn promised me to take back my guitar lesson course..

Now that i'm trying to get rid the phohibia of guitars..
Lets rock and roll~

Shit,i love you~
<3

2008-04-02T17:53:00.000+08:00

pon-ed school today..dots..dun wan in television la ps leh me..
waitted for ahpa de bus pass by bustop den follow him to work lols...
was sian-ed...anyway change my phone back to w850..sian sian that uncle deleted all my contact =.=
nvm la wads gone is gone hao liao..(jus like that incident)
while i was on bus i think to myself..
Third party really is so over rated liao la...they fuck,screw people hapiness up..
so..here i am thinking those shit things all over agn..
those who took couple's other part away..should rot in hell..
do those think that they will last for ever?If they can do this to u,den why not the thrid party agn?
Pretty weird huh?
Love it,or leave it,u will not understand...
To those who were being snatch away form their love,dun fret..sooner or later..those who fk u up will get karma de...(:
Guess i must leave long enough to see wad goes around comes around hao liao...
Dun ever die faster den me..cause i wanna see ur downfall for my amusment...
.......
Sick?
nah..
Just the taste of sweet revenge is too much to resist it..
Get it?...Those who played on me..dun think u can laugh it off..
I will always get u..
Dun ever let me know ur dirty secret..

2008-04-01T22:40:00.000+08:00

I have fun today lols~
Meet up with momo today after school..but was late to catch up with meme...
=.=''
cab down to momo mum's work place to get money..but just to realised i lost my 10 bucks...T.T
Went PS saw meme and her friend call Shawn de lols..
eat mango ice and it's too bloody ex can?
//
bused down to marina square crap around there lols...
jeffery was there,roggie was there too...
lazy type liao..
let the pic do the job hao le..

2008-03-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

Preach all you want but who's gonna save me?
I keep a gun on the book you gave me, hallelujah, lock and load
Black is the kiss, the touch of the serpent sun
It ain't the mark or the scar that makes you one,

Seen a fucking bitch ytd..makes me open my eys lols..
Likes to backstab people and act as nothing happens..Wah..
Nice one bicth(THUMPSUP)Get the fact right,i'm not so easy to be fucked by you,do u seriously think i will take the shit you give?
Even i forgive you,do you,do you,in your tiny cells size big brain think others will?

Back to this thing,let me do the introduction,
She shared the same name as me,yet looks so much worst like a fucking fucktard..face?
Certainly looks like as if car hase run over her face,although,i may not call my self nice looking but its much much more better(laughs)
Labled herself as as....punk,rocker,rockstar,emopwriincess...and the list goes on...
(Do you mind if i help u add one more?)POSER..

Respected her father,me and wen wasted our time to do something else,went and help...
while talking to her,'yes yes.its okay,i don't mind de ,anything la'
WHen we are gone,...
SHE FUCKING CRIED WOLF AND FUCKING SAID WE FORCE HER!!!

Due to maybe just known her,i decided to give her one more last chance..
but when i get back..i'm not the 1st one!
Back in her little shithole school..out of 10,9 were backstabb liao..

With her lowlife scumbag cunning DARLING~
DOES MAKES A PERFECT COUPLE?(dun u all think so?)

Someday me and wen will see,
she gets fucked...and i wonder who will pity...
Told me she dun have friend...DEn who is tis sara or sandra girl?(a piece of shit to you?)

Just to make this even more clear,H.O.U.G.A.N.G...
IS A EVil PLACE~

THRESS CHEERS FOR SWEET REVENGE~

2008-03-28T19:59:00.000+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

2008-03-28T14:00:00.000+08:00

sian sian sian...
i want to move on okay?
Wendy,when u told me that i help u through the days you are down..
now can u help me out?
Nicholas i miss you la..tomorrow afternoon den you will be back...
Conrad no matter what we are used to be ..
You are always my kor,my only kor that i can sob my hearts out..
So now you have your own problems share with me k?

2008-03-25T16:32:00.000+08:00

This world, this world is cold
But you don’t, you don’t have to go
You’re feeling sad you’re feeling lonely
And no one seems to care
You’re mother’s gone and your father hits you
This pain you cannot bare
But we all bleed the same way as you do
We all have the same things to go thru
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Your days you say they’re way too long
And your nights you can’t sleep at all (hold on)
And you’re not sure what you’re looking for
But you don’t want to no more
And you’re not sure what you’re waiting for but you don’t want to no more
But we all bleed the same way as you do
And we all have the same things to go through
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...hold on
What are you looking for?
What are you waiting for?
Do you know what you’re doing to me?
Go ahead...what are you waiting for?
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know
Don’t stop looking you’re one step closer
Don’t stop searching it’s not over...
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know...hold on

i wrote a letter,a letter to you,
cried during morning asembly lols..
ridiculas la me..
write all the emotions bottled inside me..
gave to yee tat,but not wailap..why?
he so bloody chidish give me face ><
dun wan give him..
i wonder if it right?
feeling this way?

2008-03-23T13:29:00.001+08:00

i can let go just as u let me go,
you make me live,you me die too,
when you are sad,i'm sad with you,
so now you are happyly now,so am i okay?
hope u and dasao last long orh~
<3

sorry so sorry tat tat never blog bout you T,T
one day back, tat tat and i went to find francis lor,
he now gt a daughter liao,lols so cute.
After that tat tat treat us go eat kaya bread and drinks la..
cab homed..tat tat treat also de lols..he so bloody nice la..
reach my house below he also alighted,den crap around prank call wailap lols..
reach home liao conferance with them..
my shitty phone la,so stupid..bobian use dad hp lols..
really thanks to you guys to bring me out i'm very happy..
no matter moutian sky side,sea corner,YOU ARE ALWAYS MY FRREND..
-wailap
lols
so funny can?
if you are the shit,i am the fly..
laugh my ass out la

PS:right now i really cant slp,on pills now to slp,sian la who can i tell?

2008-03-23T01:15:00.001+08:00

It took too long, it took too long
It took too long for you to call back
And normally I would just forget that

I played along, I played along
I played along rolled right off my back
But obviously my armor was cracked
What kind of a boyfriend would forget that?
Who would forget that?

We got along, we got along
We got along until you did that
Now all I want is just my stuff back
Do you get that?
Let me repeat that
I want my stuff back

2008-03-22T00:11:00.001+08:00

给你的10句值得深思的话

1）没有一个一百分的另一半，只有五十分的两个人

2）付出真心，才会得到真心，却可能伤得彻底
保持距离，就能保护自己，却也注定永远寂寞

3）通常愿意留下来跟你吵的人，才是真正爱你的人

4）有时候，不是对方不在乎你，而是你把对方看得太重

5）冷漠，有时候并不是无情，只是一种避免被伤害的工具

6）如果我们之前有1000步的距离，你只要跨出第一部，我就会朝你的方向走其余的999步

7）为你难过而快乐的是敌人
为你快乐而快乐的是朋友
为你难过而难过的就是那些该放在心里的人

8）就算是BELIEVE中间，也藏了一个LIE

9）真正的好朋友，并不是在一起有聊不完的话题
而是在一起，就算不说话，也不会感到尴尬

10）朋友就是被你看透了，还能喜欢你的人

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nobody is someone's somebody
but if one is willing
anybody have give happiness to somebody
so don't ever let somebody who loves you feel sad or disappointed

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believe that life is as short as a show of fireworks, sometimes brilliant, sometimes empty
forgive the wrongs even if you're lonely, and even if you cry you'll wipe away the tears

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a promise is very cheap!

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when love isn't here, we wait; when love leaves, we feel despondent; you walk forward, but the path isn't smooth; you look backwards, who is beside you?

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i always forget the promises that i made to myself, everyday doing the same to influence myself.

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you will only care about others if you don't care about yourself, but can you really not care about yourself? you can't, and that's why you don't care about others.

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every girl used to be an angel who doesn't have tears
but the tears will come when she meets a boy she loves
the angel fell to earth to become a girl
so a boy can never let a girl down
because she had sacrificed the whole heaven to be with you
every boy used to be a heartless demon
and only gained a heart when he found a girl he loves
the demon arrives on earth to be a boy
for the sole purpose of bringing back the heaven that the girl has lost

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love can make you forget about time, but time can also make you forget about love

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perhaps love is really a sad fairytale
it is so far away from reality
it is untouchable and seemed perfect
and that is why love seemed to be sacred

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giving up a person who loves you, isn't much of a pain
giving up a person you love, that is pain
loving a person who doesn't love you, that is the most painful of all

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if there's fate, time and space wouldn't be a barrier
if there's no fate, meeting up would not bring about a good ending
don't hope for something that won't happen
leave everything to fate

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escaping doesn't mean you'll be successful in doing so
facing it doesn't mean you'll be sad
being alone doesn't mean you'll be unhappy
having someone with you doesn't mean it'll last

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losing doesn't mean you've lost forever
it is possible that you're finding reasons to be sad
so it is possible for you to find reasons to be happy instead

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being in love means wanting to be happy
if two people together cannot be happy, then let at least one be happy
if two people together are suffering, then fulfill at least the happiness of one person

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爱，是一种感受，即使痛苦也会觉得幸福 
爱，是一种体会，即使心碎也会觉得甜蜜 
爱，是一种经历，即使破碎也会觉得美丽

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有些失去是注定的，有些缘分是永远不会有结果的 
爱一个人不一定就能拥有 
可，我就是抹不去你在我心中留下的点点滴滴

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爱一个人不孤单，想一个人才孤单 
静静的想念，孤独的享受 
放开天上的云朵，抛开遗留的誓言

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喜欢一个人，失去了，就像丢掉自己心爱的物品 
虽然遗憾，但是不会痛 
爱一个人，失去了，就会留下一个伤口 
永远都会隐隐的痛

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不要因为寂寞而错爱 
不要因为错爱而寂寞 
一幸恢炙寄罱凶龀聊颐侵洌业哪谛纳畲?
那一份感情，从此不会再提起.

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或许，只有在难得最远的时候 
才能把曾经走过的那段日子 
看得最真切、最清楚

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有一种笑未必快乐``有一种哭未必心痛```有一种感觉欲哭无泪

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逃避不一定躲的过，面对不一定最难过；失去不一定不再有，拥有不一定会长久

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那些过去的日子，每一天都是一块碎裂的拼图，是我们用爱一片一片把它们拼好。虽然看上去它是一幅完美无缺的画，但是，你我都知道，那些裂缝，一直都存在......

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在窗前感觉就算世界少了我其实也无所谓我想像个傻子一样笑着过一天

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看见的熄灭了消失的记住了我站在海角天涯听见土壤萌芽等待昙花再开我对自己说我不害怕我很爱他

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如果我只是你偶然的想念，我宁愿你从不曾想念过我。

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爱了，不爱了，都只不过是一种甜的、不甜的回忆。在爱了的时候，升华成一种美丽，泛在脸上，成了一种幸福。在不爱了的时候，沉淀成一种感触，沉在心里，成了一辈子的回忆。

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有人告诉我鱼的记忆只有7秒。7秒之后它就不记得过去的事情，一切又都变成新的。所以那小小的鱼缸里它永不觉得无聊，因为7秒一过每一个游过的地方又变成了新天地。我宁愿是鱼，7秒一过就什么都忘记。曾经遇到的人，曾经做过的事，就都可以烟消云散。

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不是每一个人都如你想象的那样美好，不是每一个人都如你想象的那样浪漫，你流泪你感动，只因为你爱上了自己的故事，我听见了生命生硬地转动时咔嚓咔嚓掉屑的声音，我的生命在不断磨合中渐渐损伤。

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坚强的孩子，脆弱的长大。

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别爱我，如果只是寂寞，如果不会很久，如果没有停泊的把握；别爱我，不要给我借口，不要让我软弱；打听幸福的下落，幸福依然是传说，就别在触动我荒凉心中还在痛

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温暖是奢侈的东西，奢侈到需要很深的寒冷和疼痛才能体现，可是彻骨的寒冷，会让人绝望```` ``

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是谁说宿命，我却只能归落

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有人说男人就象洋葱，你想看到他内心时你要一层层剥，在剥的同时你在不停流泪，可当你剥完时才发现，原来洋葱没有心的～～～

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如果幸福只是一种不再寂寞的感触, 那种幸福, 也是幸福

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世界任何一个角落，都能容下你，却都不会在乎你。
世界上的每个人，都可能成为你的朋友，也有可能与你反目。

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自己的世界会怎样，最终只取决于你自己。

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痛苦难免,但不要忧伤

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回归自己的轨道上继续漂泊

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你知不知道想念一个人的滋味，就像喝了一杯冰冷的水，然后用很长很长的时间，一滴一滴变成热泪 ……

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当秋的最后一片落叶也渐渐凋零的时候，所有的往事也在顷刻间随风而飞，记忆中的一切是真的就这样随着落叶而飞还是.............缘尽情未了

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爱在云端，痛苦在地面

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我还是我。其实我要的幸福真的很简单，可是我知道就是这么幼稚的想法让我简单的幸福来的很复杂。生活很甜美，可是甜美的背后是一张黑色的网，网走了我们的自由与梦想

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以前我总爱说“只要你想没有做不到的”现在我终于明白，有些事我真的无能为力~

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没有一个人值得你流泪，而那个值得的人，不舍得让你哭泣。

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就让一切归位，我回到原地，不再向前跨一步，

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从前以为快乐是简单的事，后来才懂得简单是快乐的事。

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失去的当做礼物；眼前的叫做幸福。

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爱其实就是瞬间的事，曾经深深相爱已足够感动自己一生。那份爱曾留下厚重的回忆，在分手后的日子里软化着自己的心，提醒不去记恨他的伤害......

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也许长大就是一次又一次有意无意的遗忘

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我放手并不代表我放弃,我微笑并不代表我快乐...

cheated

2008-03-21T10:51:00.000+08:00

I'm holdin on your rope
got me ten feet off the ground
I'm hearin what you say but
I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
-then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
eh eh eh
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
But that's nothing new yaaeeahh
I loved you with a fire red
Now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

Love is great but it isn't everything - and it doesn't work when lovers lie.
loving someone must not be together be him/her.
just be loving him/her is a happy task for you.
just by seeing him/her smile, you will smile too (=
although you really do hurt me at times
but who would remember the sad thing rather than the happy things right?

Thanks for the comforts and reassuring ..thanks for making swim back up to the top,i promise i won't back in tis endless sea.Thanks my beloved Lee Yee tat for trying to cheer me up with his retard-ness..i really cant ask much do i?

Because of this,i realised that
as much the tears,pain,emotional distraught u broght me,
i grew out of it,I GROW UP LIAO LE~
Like i said before,a wannabe is a wannabe,
always a follower~

Tell me,you guys think that yea dress funny cox yada like it,
Shoot 'em la,i dress this way also i like it,
Try and put me down,
I WILL COME BACK TIMES MORE BETTER UP~

Maybe she will have more time with u,like u said
i live so bloody far,she near mah,....
Listening to bands that i hear with u before,
Maybe now you're are listining now bah~
Lols,you have got urself a pUnk Pwriincess...(ps i dun type twiit)
And i haven gt my black colour slack3r lols,so erm..u say blablablabla~
Den the next thing i know is wadeva wadeav wadeva(is that how u spell?)

Makes me wonder,she rejected u,den confress to u?
Irony? Or just lonely~
One needed care n love,another wants to give care n love..whao!
Like that already a lasting couple liao le,

Saying bad thing now,i will prove that hor,it's the stares that u are afraid now,
and who knows ok who knows,People stare u more den ur beside one,Rofl~
Den maybe erm,u start taking weird photos post in friendster with hair covering half ur face?Or the eyeliner u hated the most?
Cut a mohawk?lols,since wan cut hair short cut like that lor,den can suit with her mah,U mention i cant suit u in style,but correct ur eyes lor she wore more dangly n more darker,guess u must have like that style now bah muahahaha...

Bet ur laoma laopa so fucking happy right now,
Ni only zi ji shuang only mah,meh yong de nan ren,kua tio hair longer,
walking on 2 legs..jump...(ps dun know how say somemore..)

And lastly,if dun inten to be in any relations any more as sis or friend..
DEN YOU BLOODY HELL DON'T SAY IT LA STUPID RITE~..

P.S u cant promise anything dun promise,and also dun become someone ur nt,it only makes u look more like an idiot

2008-03-20T23:35:00.000+08:00

wheew~
1,u said i was a disgrace to u ok lor i take it,
2,u say my eyeliner scares the hell out of pple,but i seldom wore them.
But ur chio bu femine GF of yours,is wearing them even thicker den mine?Wad u trying to prove?
3,u said i disgrace u when i go out with u,aren't u did the same?
4,u said the above mention aren't u telling me ur GF must be chio blablabla~Best is,****.
5,u said i must be happyly telling my mon wad happen,Nope none of a single shit said.
6,u must have made my tolarence gone,2 years ,6 records of GirlFriends u have.U must be really SHuai!!or,a good lier.Den i must be the uglest bitch u have ever seen .
7,Why that person call Nichole,boliao..nt scoding but i felt weird..
8,And lastly i love NICHOLAS DAR!!!
9,i must been blind lols..
10,...wasted enough tears and emotions on u,hear from ur mouth that u sai u will be kind to her is enough said..wish u all the best~

2008-03-16T01:48:00.000+08:00

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say
Oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remaind unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

2008-03-13T00:40:00.000+08:00

Can find me?
I'm dead liao lor..
I have fun..

2008-03-11T13:31:00.000+08:00

你不用勉强自己去做任何事情
但如果那是不做就会后悔的事
那就算是杀了别人,也要做

2008-03-07T00:34:00.000+08:00

1-2-3-4

Nothing compares to
A quiet evening alone
Just the one, two
I was just counting on
That never happened
I guess I'm dreamin' again
Let's be more than this

If you wanna play it like a game
Well, come on, come on, lets play
Cause I'd rather waste my life pretending
Than have to forget you for one whole minute

i have got nothing to say as i have already felt that this day is coming closer,mentaly prepare liao lols,pon tan school tomorrow bah..cant seems to drag me to school..

2008-03-06T11:00:00.000+08:00

Told you I made dinner plans
For you and me and no one else
That don't include your crazy friends
Well I'm done
With awkward situations empty conversations

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half
It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

So this is where the story ends
A conversation on IM
Well I'm done
with Texting,
Sorry for the miscommunication

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
And I can't find the other half
It's like I'm walking on broken glass,
better believe I bled
It's a call I'll never get

Next time I'll see you
I'm giving you a high five
cause hugs are over rated, just FYI

Oh This is an S.O.S.
Don't wanna second guess,
This is the bottom line
It's true
I gave my all for you,
now my heart's in two
(yeah)

2008-03-04T14:47:00.000+08:00

i jus come back school,paint my canvas lols..until hand all red red ..
tis sat fast lai orh..
xia0fat..!!why never come out la sian..
i hate u la..>.<
update blog blog too orh..

2008-03-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

play pool,a sports for ah beng n ah lians

2008-02-29T00:27:00.001+08:00

Just something to share....
There was this boy and this girl. They both knew each other since they was young. As they grew older, the boy fells for this girl. He asked to be her stead that time, and she agrees. He was 14, and she was 13...
As time passes, the girl family decides to sent her to overseas to further her studies. Though sad, but the boy knews that he have to let her go. She left to Australia when she was 20...
They both called each other almost everyday... till one day, there was no news from the girl... he started to worries and panic... That night, the girl called... She told him that he found another boyfriend out there, and decide to break off with him... He cried...
Since then, the boy started 'abusing' himself. By getting into fights, started smoking, drinking... and he even flirt around with other girls, and having ONS... another 2 year passes...
One day, the girls returned to Singapore and decide to meet him. They both meet up... The girls was no longer the beautiful and cheerful lady as in the past. She has became thinner, and her face looks pale. But still, we treasure the moments and spent about 2 weeks together, before she going to Taiwan to transfer flight to Japan....
On the day she on-board the flight, he wanted her to stay and wanted to tell her, he still loves her. However, he got no guts to say it out. he can only quietly sent her away...
That night, a news broke out which shocked him up. The plane which was departing from Taiwan to Japan had crashed!! Upon hearing this, he went about to check it. After confirming her death, he cried...
This day, he attended her funeral. Her sister came over and told him something that makes him never forget. She told him that actually while the girl was in Australia, she did not had any boyfriend. She was found to have Bone Cancer, and had not much to live. Not to worry him and make him sad, she decided to lies to him. When she was back in Singapore, she was hoping that the boy will persuade her to stays... but in the end, he did not...
The boy really regrets of all this. Since then, he learnt something....
"To treasure when you have it, and not to lose it when you started to regret..."

2008-02-24T19:54:00.001+08:00

The more than 850 million chickens killed each year for KFC’s buckets are crammed by the tens of thousands into excrement-filled sheds that stink of ammonia fumes.
The birds’ legs and wings often break because they’re bred to be too top-heavy and because workers carelessly shove them into transport crates and shackles.
Chickens’ throats are slit and the animals are dropped into tanks of scalding-hot water to remove their feathers, often while they are still conscious and able to feel pain.
KFC lets frustrated factory-farm and slaughterhouse workers handle live birds, so many of the animals end up being sadistically abused. At a KFC “Supplier of the Year” slaughterhouse in West Virginia, workers were documented tearing the heads off live birds, spitting tobacco into their eyes, spray-painting their faces, and violently stomping on them. This was discovered more than two years after KFC promised PETA that it was taking animal welfare seriously.
KFC hides behind its Animal Welfare Advisory Council, even though five members of the council have resigned in frustration. One of them, Adele Douglass, told the Chicago Tribune that KFC “never had any meetings. They never asked any advice, and then they touted to the press that they had this animal-welfare advisory committee. I felt like I was being used.”
How KFC Can Clean Up Its Act
PETA wants KFC to adopt the animal welfare program developed by five members of its own animal welfare board. These advisors are the world’s top poultry experts; they advise the meat industry in North America and Europe and believe that KFC can—and should—adopt them. KFC has yet to do any of the following:

Adopt the “Animal Care Standards” program. This would lower the amount of ammonia in the air in factory farms, improve the living spaces and lighting in chicken sheds, prohibit the intentional starving of breeding birds, and ensure that birds are provided with mental and physical stimulation.
Switch to controlled-atmosphere killing (CAK). This would prevent live birds in slaughterhouses from being abused by workers, having their throats slit, or being scalded while they were still conscious. CAK would also improve conditions for workers and decrease contamination levels in chickens’ flesh.
Switch to mechanized chicken gathering. This would drastically reduce the number of broken bones and painful bruising that birds endure when factory-farm workers carelessly throw them into transport crates.
Breed for health rather than rapid growth, and stop feeding drugs to chickens. This would reduce the rate at which birds suffer painful, crippling diseases and injuries, such as broken legs, heart attacks, and lung failures.
Make all welfare standards transparent and verifiable. This would simply ensure that the animal welfare program is being adhered to through announced and unannounced independent audits (the results of which must be made available to the public through KFC’s Web site).

2008-02-20T20:21:00.000+08:00

well just like the song,sometimes must bend den can survive..
okay la the song not like that say..
anyway today is a chaotic day can?

2008-02-19T19:49:00.000+08:00

我希望相信世界有
奇迹出现
我想要我们的童话
不只是瞬间
我希望今后都能快乐
永不分离
但我上不去天堂
我不能够陪你
不存在一种永恒
不相信世界有神
死亡是不是终点
会停止想念
不能再亲吻你的脸
不管我有多怀念
我真的希望我们快乐
永不分离
只有你能上天堂
我到不了那里
只要想念没改变
不管多远
我会在你心里面

死亡是不是终点
会停止想念
不能再亲吻你的脸
不管我有多怀念
Is by Stanley ..
cant find orginal by him>.<

रंदोम थौघ्ट्स

2008-02-17T21:12:00.000+08:00

Jus realised alot of shit happens,seen alot news about Britney Spears being siao..
Yea never see wrong ..she siao liao..=.=''
Come to think of it,if that Kfuck never shown up will she still be like this?
What goes around comes around..
RANDOM THOUGHTS..
>.<
WENDY GAMPAHTEHYO!!!

2008-01-26T17:48:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't love you, but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you, but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's gettin' hard to
Be around you
Theres so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make the feelings stop

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let 'him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killin' me
Im wondering why I've waited so long
Lookin' back I realize it was always there, just never spoken
I'm waitin' here
Been waitin' here

mmm oooh

Just so you know
This feeling's takin' control
Of me and I can't help it
I wont sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Whoa
Just so you know
Whoa
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go
Of you but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
Just so you know

2008-01-23T23:34:00.000+08:00

My blog only myself read lols..
Maybe its a good thing cause i can keep all my feelings here?
Did something to my ear,hurts but hey hey..
Skip school,went National libary to sself study instead,wei i skip but i study back de okay?
settle some shit and so MR C,MR C and MR s,will be the past of me..
Now only want live hao hao dun want think much bout future..

2008-01-20T02:01:00.000+08:00

Long since i last touch my comp to update any shit.
Life goes on as expectedly around,things are changing ,DUDE,come on wake up la!!
Please change my attitude,thinking and way of handling stuff.
I know i fickle minded,but when i heard your name my thoughts grow attention on it.Not everyones chooses that name,so weird yet is the name i grew affection on.
My school works all flunk but i decided to get back on my feet and start working hard now.
Maybe its too late,since you been gone,i really realised whats the feeling of love or missing a person.
Even if its just a place where we used to hang out,when i first met you.
The pang inside my damn mind.I bet you doesn't have a clue,i bet you are just wasting your time on me..
I have waited for so long,but i think i should really let go on you...
I really hope one day..(The Following sentances will just leave it on my current hheart)

2008-01-14T21:46:00.000+08:00

Today school gt advocate meeting,very sian lor,
the last yr the advocates which is i am from,can go die liao.
Cause all the things to be done is by sec 2 n 3.
Den sec 4 n 5 leh?
Really can go die liao.
After school,went bank n bla bla~
Brought a skinny,2 Mcr Tees and my LOve Hoodies...
Damn Feeling FUCK UP now..maybe i wish can see more morbid movies hahas.

2008-01-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

Its over,Finaly over by the date of 12/1/08
i finaly think its time to end this shit.

2008-01-11T20:26:00.000+08:00

Crurrently chiong-ing my One Piece movies lols,
it was great,helps me take off my load awhile,but the load was still there haix
sadded la.Thanks all who help me for my birthdays lots,cant really out names cox theres to many hahas...And erm,lols bye bye~
PS:cos i wanna see my op movies la muahaha~
ON TO GO MUGI!!

2007-12-14T00:36:00.000+08:00

Seriouly my life now sucks okay,shit happens i know but this shit is too much for me to take it.Screwed my shit arse hole life,work like a idiot whose life is like a total mess.Customers gives me attitude and i smile back at them..funny hor?
Today very 'sway'dun want giv explaination but one that i wanted to mention is that while waiting for burgers,i look inside kichen and look at the auntie from lt,maybe is i siao or what but i really did saw a girl lor,den before i know it,missing liao n the is the auntie..weird,after that keep getting cold lor and den something keep going inside my mind..burrr den lols reach home that something msn..weird la

2007-12-11T13:13:00.000+08:00

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2007-12-11T13:10:00.000+08:00

9/12/07 sunday
Its been awhile tha i have blog,recently i went for hair extansion and it seems that i'm not the one to have long hair lols..=)
Now i look like the ghost of you=(
Ytd work like shit till 12 pm den auctually taking company cab home but thinking of that have to go Sengkang first before going Jurong turns me off."Longpang"Dorai's bike home since he going IMM fetch his friend,its been a long time since i rode on a bike ..the the thrill >,<
Nah,Dorai drive so slow no kick hahax..
Now on the freaking slow Mrt typing my blog shitty lor haix..
Sorted some problems just now and now i gonna say i don't love like i did ytd..
I wanna buy a Mcr hoodie any kind soul buy for me?

2007-11-30T00:31:00.000+08:00

Dsclaimer:i do not wrote those but i forgotten where i seen this but this is not mine:)Thank You

So I leave you with this...This was something based on an article i saw, I just added a little personality to it.

My Chemical Romance has ALOT to teach us all. They are an amazing band, one of the greates of all time and ithey deserve the best of fans. These are some of the basics but always keep this in mind: the GREATEST way to be an MCR is to NEVER LET THEM DOWN.

S.T.E.P.S

1- Just bee yourself; never let anyone control or dictate your life, it goes against everything the band stands for.

2- Never NEVER resort to violence, it gets you no where (or probably hospital)

3- Stay civil. Just because someone wears The Used t-shirt, it does not make them an enemy. My Chemical Romance would be disappointed in anyone for picking on somebody cause they like a certain band. Just because The Used trashes My Chemical Romance sometimes doesn't make them enemies and doesnt mean that you have to trash their fans or the band.

4- Never say you are the bigger fan. All fans are equal; having gone to 8 concerts and knowing every fact about the band does not make you a bigger fan than the thirteen year old girl who just heard of them as of 'The Black Parade'.

5- Never take any crap (or shit xD) from anybody, but never start fights. If somebody starts with you, don't just sit there and take it, stand up for yourself, make you worth.

6- My Chemical Romance are not sellouts because they got famous. Most good bands do get famous. If they had no fans, they wouldnt get famous. So, yes, fame brings more fans, but be happy for them, rather than spiteful, it looks great on you as a model person.

7- Also have in mind that Gerard IS NOT THE ONLY member of the band. Yes, he works very hard in his vocals, and he has an amazing stage presence, but there are four more amazing guys in the band. Frank Iero, Bob Bryar, Ray Toro, and Mikey Way work just as hard, writing and playing music. A band is a group effort,they are very great and hard workers that deserve as many ''cheers'' and ''recognition'' as Gerard, and keep in mind that My Chemical Romance wouldn't be what they are today if they were short a member.

T.I.P.S

----> You do not have to dress goth, punk, emo or whatever you wish to call it, to be a My Chemical Romance fan. Like they say: BE YOURSELF.

----> It does not matter if My Chemical Romance is goth, punk, heavy metal, hippie or chicken busters. If you love their music they are whatever you want them to be.

----> Don't pretend to be a fan. Nobody likes fake people, people pretending to be something else. We, MCR fans, prefer an honest person that dislikes MCR than a person that acts like an MCR fan but hates them inside. Thank you

2007-11-29T01:45:00.000+08:00

1. ...hearing any of the following noises immediately perks your interest: static, a heart monitor, or faint explosions.

2. ...someone says, "No fucking way!" and the first thing you think it, "Aw, that sucks; he's still on his honeymoon too!"

3. ...you boycott Aqua Teen Hunger Force because there is NO WAY it is better than The Breakfast Monkey.

4. ...you know which member of the band makes Bob Bryar's heart burn.

5. ...you really DO know what they do to guys like them in prison.

6. ...you, too, were killing before killing was cool.

7. ...you know that homophobia is gay and that Frank Iero is "a monster".

8. ...you raise your hand in history class when the teacher is talking about the asteroid that killed the dinosaurs and say, "Ah, but that fucking asteroid missed the Torosaurus!"

9. ...you know that pears really ARE good organic.

10. ...thanks to that one fan letter session, you know the meaning of the phrase "haute couture."

11. ...you have begun at least one conversation with, "What's the worst that I could say?"

12. ...you have ended at least one conversation with, "So long and goodnight."

13. ...after the release of The Black Parade, you began referring to you mother as either "Mama" or "Mother War" whenever you got mad at her

14. ...you know that there are teenagers, and then there is "Teenagers."

15. ...you still mourn the death of Pansy.

16. ...you can make the connection between the phrase "back in black" and Gerard Way's hair

17. ...you keep an eye out for a certain bum every time you go to San Francisco.

18. ...you find it extremely ironic that the guys used to be baffled as to why so many people thought they were vampires, but you read the warning against illegal copying on the first CD.

19. ...you can make the connection between the letters "NJ" and the inside of the lower lip.

20. ...you support Bob Bryar's solo project.

21. ...you crossed out "Halloween" on your calendar and replaced it with "Frank Iero's Birthday."

22. ...you crossed out "New Year's Eve" on your calendar and replaced it with "Bob Bryar's Birthday."

23. ...you look out your window on a rainy day, see all the people with umbrellas, and think, "Wow, the Academy is really growing!"

24. ...you have unleashed the fucking bats.

25. ...you find it extremely funny that a certain guitarist who cannot swim totally rocks at the song "Drowning Lessons."

26. ...when you heard Gerard got engaged, you thought to yourself, "Huh, I guess he DID go off to "find another Way."

27. ...when someone asks you how you are feeling when you are sad, you respond, "I'm not okay."

28. ...you have taken duct tape and a sharpie to your street sign and changed the street name to Cemetery Drive.

29. ...someone offers to tell you a riddle and you ask, "That depends...is it that riddle of revenge?"

30. ...there is only one saint that you worship, and that is the Patron Saint of Switchblade Fights.

31. ...when you are sick of your face, you are allowed to be sick of your face, cuz it's your fucking face.

32. ...you hear the word "bunny" and think of a cat.

33. ..."Traitors!"...

34. ...you actually KNOW how to pronounce Frank Iero's last name ("eye-ear-oh").

35. ...when breaking up with someone, you have used the line, "Honey, this mirror isn't big enough for the two of us."

36. ...when someone breaks up with YOU, you have shouted after them, "You didn't even have the guts to say, 'I don't love you like I loved you yesterday,' you bastard!"

37. ...someone mentions angels and you think, "Headfirst for halos!"

38. ...you wonder why the anthem didn't explain it, anyway. 39. ...you have done or died.

40. ...every time you are faced with a difficult decision, you think to yourself, "Could I? Should I?"

41. ...you know that celebrities die by threes.

42. ...you know that dead cartoon people are not the only ones who can have X's over their eyes.

43. ...you don't keep any garlic or a crucifix around because you know that vampires will never hurt you.

44. ...everytime you play cards, you remove the "wild-eyed jokers" from the deck.

45. ...you can go skydiving because you lost your "fear of falling."

46. ...you hear anything that relates to William Shakespeare, and the first words in your head are "Juliet loves the beat and the lust it commands..."

47. ...any guy ever comes up and asks for a tit show and you spit in his face and yell, "FUCK. YOU!"

48. ...you hear the beginning of an MCR song on the radio and think, "Oh baby here comes the sound!"

49. ...after The Black Parade came out, you changed your zodiac sign to Cancer.

50. ...that sound of the drumsticks clicking at the end of "Teenagers" is the TRUE end of the song.

51. ...all you are is bullets.

52. ...you have walked into a candy store and said, "Gimme all your poison!"

53. ...if the employee at the above candy store complied, you responded with, "Thank you for the venom!"

54. ...you won't go down by yourself, but you'll go down with your friends.

55. ...your weapon of choice is a croquet mallet.

56. ...you still can't look at orange crayons without blushing.

57. ...you have refused to swim in a pool because the lifeguard was "dressed in red and blue"...

58. ...you know the difference between immortality and never dying.

59. ...someone says, "NOW!" and you instinctively respond with, "But I can't!"

60. ...for prom, you went up to your friends/date and asked, "Now don't I look pretty walkin' down the street in the best damn dress I own?!"

61. ...you aspire to own a Benz someday for the sole purpose of driving ninety past the Barbies and Kens.

62. ...someone proposes marriage to you, and you look them in the eye and ask, "If you marry me, would you bury me? Would you carry me to the end?"

63. ...everytime you see a flock of doves, you instinctively look for a bullet.

64. ...you've looked in the mirror and not liked what you saw.

65. ...someone asks you how you'd feel if you met MCR, and you respond with, "Tongue-tied and oh so squeamish..."

66. ...you have wondered what would happen if Little Red Riding hood heard about track 7 on TBP...

67. ...you work in a densely-packed office building and have had "Cubicles" on repeat for an hour or more.

68. ...when you're in over your head, you have said, "Heaven help us!"

69. ...someone near you starts smoking, and you play "Cancer" pointedly in their direction.

70. ...every single time you are in an elevator, you immediately check to see if it "only goes up to ten."

71. ...you get pissed off at your boyfriend and tell your friends, "He's not around, he's always looking at men."

72. ...you wonder if Gerard singing "Way down" in "Cemetery Drive" has anything to do with the fact that his brother, Mikey, "died" in the video for "The Ghost of You."

73. ...when you're running late for something and your mom or dad says, "We have got to go!" you echo them out of habit and maybe even wave a lighter for dramatic effect.

74. ...any story beginning with "Long ago" immediately causes you to think, "just like the hearse. You. Died to get in again..."

75. ...you do not "light" matches; you "strike" them.

76. ...someone says they'll give you anything, and you say, "Fine, how about a thousand bodies piled up?"

77. ...you adore every inch of sanity.

78. ...you don't just stand, you stand up fucking tall!

79. ...you have given out invitations for some event, and you have written on them "Now come one, come all to this tragic affair..."

80. ...screw skinny jeans; what's in is despair!

81. ...you refer to what you get out of those annoying little prize machines that rarely ever hang onto the stuffed animals inside of them as "the winnings."

82. ...the only "Rmy" you're ever joining has an "MC" in front of it, thankyouverymuch.

83. ...you own Bob Bryar's Book of Cats

84. ...you know that Skeleton Crew does not, repeat, not refer to the undead seadogs of "Pirates of the Caribbean".

85. ...you use "MCR Speak" to mess with people's minds (ex. "Yeah, ever since the breakup, Revenge-5. Seriously, you'd think my ex could've said Parade-6 before he left me for that bitch. Fuck Bullets-1!" in which "Revenge-5" translates to "I'm not okay" and "Parade-6" translates to "I don't love you," and "Bullets-1" translates to "romance".)

86. ...in the spirit of the above, your copy of "Life on the Murder Scene" is Parade-2 from so many viewings.

87. ...when going to meet Ray Toro, you wear a t-shirt with a picture of a cupcake and the words "We Will Always Remember."

88. ...you name your guitars.

89. ...you have Lasik surgery, then announce a funeral time and date for your old glasses.

90. ...you do not aspire to be famous; you aspire to be Ghostbuster famous.

91. ...every time you avenge yourself, you cheer three times.

92. ...they are Your Chemical Romance.

93. ...you're an animal that never paid attention in school.

94. ...you are not afraid to walk this world alone.

95. ...you know that certain guitarists should not balance on top of certain drumsets during certain live tv shows.

96. ...you rock out just for the dead.

97. ...when your significant other calls, you answer with "Hello, angel, tell me where are you?"

98. ...you only take trains out of New Orleans.

99. ...you are a certified "bunk-diver."

100. ...you know what a bed of roses and a gun have in common.

101. ...you know that the end is only the beginning. Then there's "DEAD!", "This is How I Disappear," "The Sharpest Lives,"...

i'm guilty,of 101 i have done 90 plus...oppss

2007-11-26T00:44:00.000+08:00

stupid lao cheebye....make me hate that shop liao
dun wan say more very sian
attended my mums fren son wedding,very funny to see alot bengs n lians
so colourful hairs haha,cannot say them leh me also haha
saw the bride quite pretty but age 16+ n big tummy..aiya nt my prob also dun wan chup

Very bo chup alot things nowadays,its stupid to think of how last time i used to hold on so stongly and only now to realised that its not what i really wanted..
Its been a new thinking new way of my way of handleing things..seems weird but hey always try new things..
Wishes to be 18 now but no way,so now i can only pin my hope on someone else to so call fulfil my fream of biking,but its like i dun know how to say..

Life seems so fucking weird,thats why i'm weird~
crapping only leh,
Yes yes,so far some knew,i wanted to be a "gal gal" back
For past 15 years i never acted like a gal,as i said now i wanted a huge change okay?
Grew out my hair?Dun cut it?
Hope it helps a little..

Just wanna say that i still don't know what is wrong with me and i hope u are happy even if u are_______...now

2007-11-23T02:07:00.000+08:00

生命中有的不止是相遇,巧合,更多的是错过,有的人有很多次相遇很多次巧合却只有一次错过,我不想做一个会错过的人,但我知道我是一个会等待的人,是时间教会了我等待.我等待不代表我懦弱,我有我的原因,我的原因懂我的人会明白,像一个小孩子一样死咬着糖不张嘴,也许是太怕失去糖,但孩子不知道糖放进嘴里是会化的,糖化了,留下的只有口中甜甜的滋味,孩子很快会忘记这糖的滋味,但我不会忘掉,因为毕竟甜过........
　有的时候,自己也不太懂得自己,但感觉你比我懂的我,以前有了开心的不开心的都想与你分享,现在觉得这可能已经成为你的一种负担,因为我懂你,有人说相爱不如相知,我却觉得爱情是一种默契,一种发自心底的温柔,可能是我太傻了,也可能是你太聪明了,这样的我们永远只能像梳子一样,虽然相连却总是平行的,我没法说出心底的感觉,因为它藏在最深的深处,因为我知道它的宝贵所以不能和任何和人分享,但是你是除外的.........

2007-11-23T01:53:00.000+08:00

so long since i last blog,alot of things happen recently.one of which affected me greatly.I don know is it fated to be since i dun wan brab the chance when i have one,hai suan le its all too late to say anything liao right?went drumming today with conrad,den went to work...its all the same old thing..Rmb the time i use to have spent on talking on the phone with the certain someone hai its just makes me feel so confused suan le bah..2 months is up,and i'm still feeling the same,maybe abit lesser but its not what u predicted me to be...and for that casper,he seriously makes my blood boils when he said something to me....who else to blame?for conrad keep keeping close to me or to me who dun know how to avoid him?too troublesome la....going to my mum frens son wedding,its what really fucking shocks me the most,that guy was older den me 1 yr and was my playmate when i was a kid..now my mum was telling me his gonna get married and 3 more fucking months his gonna be a dad..wha kao i wan ki siao faint liao la..oh ya to Eugene u think u have succeeded bah,he quited his job liao maybe u are happy bah..?

2007-11-11T00:12:00.000+08:00

CHao sissy ah gua really spoils my moood for today la kao!!
Kan nin na bu chao chee bai!!
Today BK busy like shit lor,but ok la i don't blame nor grumper but that
sissy chao ah gua just spoils my mood..dun want say so much if u wan noe ask me don wan say here...
Du lan la him,ask manager come den ask Jeffery fo fire me and wendy juz because we "touch"the fries..NEVER EVEN touch dao lor kao!!
sua i say nothing ok wan fired fired us lor,can always find a new job what
Just that i will miss the dudes that have fun with me haix
sian sian..XX 2 days MC left me having a grin on my mouth lols..(i so bad)
But really la as much as i hated him still wish he recover soon bah(hope not *evil laughter*)

2007-11-08T01:48:00.000+08:00

no matter wad i try to do or change myself i cant deny the fact that i'm feeling this haix..what is wrong with me,i smile joke have fun with you all but ends i stioo felt the same agony that hit me 1o times even worst..shitty la..i hope you are happy that the fact is you got___with you now..I won't blame you since this is suppose to be life and i am juz a stranger to you only mah...Conrad has really made me totaly lost hope on guys to the extent that even i i like you i won;t it...its so not me can?If i was someone who i use to i will really juz spit out..now now all i acn is i really give on you even as a friend juz like conrad i give up liao,tomorrow i will be off to work agn as usual putting on my fake smiles n laughter and play with you all but how i felt inside hehehaha...sssssssssmmmmmmiiiiiiiilllllleeeeeeeeeeee.....

थे गाए व्हो वर्क उसिंग mouth

2007-11-05T23:40:00.000+08:00

Hang around Chu chu kang Lot 1 shopping mall,saw some pros playing guitar n drum mania 4.Sian..i don't dare tap my card to play leh,very pai seh lor...
Can't take the shame,me and Conrad went down to the liabary to use lappy..
Used lappy go youtube watch Power Rangers lols
Wendy called say want dyed hair the same place i am so want bring her there
Meet at Amk,while outside saw her on bus muahahahaha.....
Drumming session~
Go BK marina my work place=.=
That xx hor,dulan him bo ji la kan************...(guess bah)
Okay,Wendy shouted back at him and so call save the day!?
So fucking funny can...all the idiots look back at her and wha
that mathod really did shut him up :)
We went behind Bk where all slackers go smoke de
While conrad was smoking that xx want go toilet but saw us run back...
If you are there to see his face is so fucking funny lor..
Xx came out alot time "spy"us,no choice Dorai came out and smoke with us too..
In conclusion XX is really at humji kia

2007-11-04T22:25:00.000+08:00

Someone was nice today leh,so weird lor really starts to hate him liao ler but now his like that again omg wth...
Help me please?Baah,joking no what now he will never replace the xiaoxiao he use to be in my eyes..sad huh
Nevermind don't wan keep say him,as i said before custmor really pissed me off when one use hot water make it fall and cause boiling hot water burn ur hand and you have to apologise sat sorry fuck...
Went home early see doctor,see hair stylist...wasted so much money...
But i felt better,new blonde n red higlights =)

2007-11-03T21:56:00.000+08:00

Went to work today,as i woke up early i reach BK at around 11 lor..den that bloody xx just have to come shout at me saying"ni zhen me zao lai zhou shen mor!!"(you come so early for what!!)WTH lor you not the boss leh sian fker..
i went to the crew room drop my load a.k.a bag =)den tell that auntie who work at bk also de that i go out slack till my time which is 12..dulan lor antie say hao hao come back fast but that xx just have t 'chap' in say "eh,go arcade play 1st later den come back la'"(shit him la care so much for what,so what even if he use to be my xiaoxiao which until now i dun understand what the hell means)
Ok lor really did went to arcade to play my guitar but =.= its not FUCking switch on !!!!
No choice went to the sushi buffet thingy and drools on the window =)
Punch in my card start my work -why the hell must xx work same day as me ..so unlucky sia
For what i know when he still zz that time is really a nice dude to hang out have fun and chat with,but now,
TOTALY FUCK UP ASSHOLE MOTHER FUCKING BASTARD,like he own bk like big big boss like that,even the managers are nice mannered and jokers lor ..shitty seh
Pardon for my vulgarities,he really 'kiam pah'la
As usual some bloody customers,omg sian don't want say,lets just say that they are customer from hell *hint hint*
During one part of the time dun know why la xx acted as zz again which baaah makes me wanna puke when i think of it now...
Hmmm,one really weird thing,when xx once saw wendy..auto 'black'face sia pro..

BK Marina square

the pace where cutomer eat their oder

MENU

DORAI

Eugene(full-time camwhore kia at bk)

Wendy(as u can see camwhore kia aim camera pro =))

Mohan(camera shy )

RAJ

Wanted to nicly take the milo thing de but CMK at work again

UNder the requst of CMK

2007-11-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

Started going to work today only to realise i was late by an hour=[
i thought it was 12 but in reality its 11 what the hell lor sian
den while to work in the mrt i use lappy to see movie baaah
but sian de lor didn't get my mood brighter cox of someone
dulan de lor everytime expect me to do something which i don't have to
STUPID FUKER ruin my mood make people think what happen to me when i coming to work
during work hor den found out that alot no is all the co all hates him lols or dislike
sometimes hor i think to myself that why am i stuck in this situation why do i get all this shit happening to me why i have to listen to u tolerate all your childish behaviour alll your demandings and being threaten by you yet i couldn't do anything bout it...
why why why so many whys
it cant really be answered ..
i won't make myself try to become your best

2007-10-31T13:34:00.000+08:00

i had this dream today
its making me to wet my face with tears when i woke up
its scarring me but who can i blame?
you are juz an adult to me when i needed advice but who was i to complian
in that dream you found your dream girl which makes me felt weird
i found myself indulging in very thick white face paint n painted my face
maybe thats what a person in life should do
act bah?
its not everyday thats such thoughts makes me think
but its time i cool down and think what i wanted

2007-10-30T23:47:00.000+08:00

nothing much to say bout my life but really la it was a failure hai
cant say that it was all good but i juz lost all my feelings again liao bah stupid me

2007-10-28T00:01:00.000+08:00

My counter job has been doing very well and able to serve customer without much problem,a new crew has rejoin us and the name is Eugene lols..quite a looker but too bad not my type lols,that punk dude that i stalk ytd will be better hahas...wendy should know who i saying bah =]
Anyway after work went to the arcade play,realised i really is guitarist and wendt drummer..(should we form a band?)
gaming session over we went over to a punkloli shop hehe,the worker there very cute n pretty lor bonus is she very friendy lol and when we tried clothes on,she say we can continue come play =.=
abit paiseh still lehs,she also promised to reseaverd my 'guitar' bag happy seh
planning to buy a boot more tees n that lovveyy bag (wan broke soon liao la)
wendy tried one lolita and it suits her while for me i tried too but i end up looking like a transexual if dun understand it means 'ah gua' haha
tmr after work go try clothes again